Code deploy happening shortly

Aug. 31st, 2025 07:37 pm
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[staff profile] mark posting in [site community profile] dw_maintenance

Per the [site community profile] dw_news post regarding the MS/TN blocks, we are doing a small code push shortly in order to get the code live. As per usual, please let us know if you see anything wonky.

There is some code cleanup we've been doing that is going out with this push but I don't think there is any new/reworked functionality, so it should be pretty invisible if all goes well.

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[staff profile] denise posting in [site community profile] dw_news

A reminder to everyone that starting tomorrow, we are being forced to block access to any IP address that geolocates to the state of Mississippi for legal reasons while we and Netchoice continue fighting the law in court. People whose IP addresses geolocate to Mississippi will only be able to access a page that explains the issue and lets them know that we'll be back to offer them service as soon as the legal risk to us is less existential.

The block page will include the apology but I'll repeat it here: we don't do geolocation ourselves, so we're limited to the geolocation ability of our network provider. Our anti-spam geolocation blocks have shown us that their geolocation database has a number of mistakes in it. If one of your friends who doesn't live in Mississippi gets the block message, there is nothing we can do on our end to adjust the block, because we don't control it. The only way to fix a mistaken block is to change your IP address to one that doesn't register as being in Mississippi, either by disconnecting your internet connection and reconnecting it (if you don't have a static IP address) or using a VPN.

In related news, the judge in our challenge to Tennessee's social media age verification, parental consent, and parental surveillance law (which we are also part of the fight against!) ruled last month that we had not met the threshold for a temporary injunction preventing the state from enforcing the law while the court case proceeds.

The Tennesee law is less onerous than the Mississippi law and the fines for violating it are slightly less ruinous (slightly), but it's still a risk to us. While the fight goes on, we've decided to prevent any new account signups from anyone under 18 in Tennessee to protect ourselves against risk. We do not need to block access from the whole state: this only applies to new account creation.

Because we don't do any geolocation on our users and our network provider's geolocation services only apply to blocking access to the site entirely, the way we're implementing this is a new mandatory question on the account creation form asking if you live in Tennessee. If you do, you'll be unable to register an account if you're under 18, not just the under 13 restriction mandated by COPPA. Like the restrictions on the state of Mississippi, we absolutely hate having to do this, we're sorry, and we hope we'll be able to undo it as soon as possible.

Finally, I'd like to thank every one of you who's commented with a message of support for this fight or who's bought paid time to help keep us running. The fact we're entirely user-supported and you all genuinely understand why this fight is so important for everyone is a huge part of why we can continue to do this work. I've also sent a lot of your comments to the lawyers who are fighting the actual battles in court, and they find your wholehearted support just as encouraging and motivating as I do. Thank you all once again for being the best users any social media site could ever hope for. You make me proud and even more determined to yell at state attorneys general on your behalf.

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I am starting to collect songs that I think of as "Songs That Are Actually More Relevant Now Than They Were When They Were Released Many Years Ago." These are the ones on the list so far:








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And then there's this one, which would need to have its references updated and would be more like "The Revolution Will Not Be Online" but whose central premise is still so relevant:

it's time to rest.

Aug. 28th, 2025 05:49 pm
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uuggghhhh just need to say, if your approach to depression is, "it's time to fight!", pro tip: you're not actually depressed.
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These questions were written by [personal profile] spiralsheep.

1. Does where you live have regular doorstep rubbish collections or do you have to take your trash somewhere else?

2. Do you separate recycling? What sort of stuff gets recycled from your household?

3. Do you take things you don't need to charity shops, or give them away online, or sell them secondhand, or ...?

4. Do you pick up litter in your local area, from streets or trails or play areas or parks? Have you ever found anything interesting discarded or lost in a public space?

5. Are there "repair cafés" near you to help mend fixable items? Have you ever been helped by a community repair service or volunteered for one? Do you do any other kind of upcycling?

Copy and paste to your own journal, then reply to this post with a link to your answers. If your journal is private or friends-only, you can post your full answers in the comments below.

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a bouquet of links

Aug. 28th, 2025 11:02 am
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+ 404 Media out here doing the Lord's work, in this case talking about how the tariffs are going to affect hobbying in the US through the lens of eBay. Trump Tariffs Cause Chaos on Ebay as Every Hobby Becomes Logistical Nightmare. NIGHTMARE! NIGHTMARE!

+ A Dubai Chocolate Theory of the Internet is so good. Ryan Broderick's position is that video on the internet has become primarily a vehicle to spread pornography--not pornography in the sense of sexual content (necessarily), but that video has gone from telling a story (even if it was 8 seconds long, like in a Vine) to people vicariously watching other people have sensory experiences--eating things, touching things, etc. Narrative is no longer necessary at all and in fact is at a disadvantage. TikTok, according to this theory, does not want to create culture, it just wants to get people to buy stuff. Quote: "If we can get everyone to make ads, then those ads can become culture. Instead of making culture to sell ads...it's the total inverse....TikTok is competing not with [other social media sites], it's competing with Amazon."

I found this theory very compelling from what I can tell of the TikTok/Reels-dominated internet that I do not participate in. I would be interested to learn if those of you who are more familiar with that side of the internet agree.

This episode also goes into detail about how influencers end up with various products, which is a process that I find really depressing and cynical--I am one of those people who thinks we should stop using "influencers" and go back to using "shills" but that's just me.

This theory even explains how Gen Z is defining "cool." Basically, this is the most interesting theory of the current moment of the internet that I have ever come across, and it's going to shape how I think about the most popular parts of the internet going forward.

+ My friends over at Invisible Histories have produced an online zine entitled How to Spot AI Images Online (you'll need to scroll down to access it). On the other hand, I appreciated this artist on Tumblr talking about how we shouldn't worry ourselves to death when we can't tell what is and what is not AI.

+ Peter Shamshiri is one of my favorite grumpy dudes on the internet, and I really enjoyed this Is Activist Vocabulary Hurting the Democrats because he reports on some very basic fact-checking of the type that we desperately need more of.

+ For those of you who need it, reactions to the death of James Dobson. (The last one is on Substack if you--understandably--want to avoid that site.)

+ This macro is my favorite reaction to the news about a certain person's engagement. I don't know if it's genuinely hilarious or if it's just so tailored to my individual interests (Judaism, musical theater, Judaism in musical theater) that I was just carried away, but I love it even though I care zero percent about said engagement.
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stalling on getting to the hospital for my x-ray, I really hate walk-in appts! But I've done it before and it wasn't too bad. (I think I had to do this for my shoulder MRI, oddly enough.) I think there is a starbucks inside so I can maybe get a cold brew with cold foam as a little treat when I am done.

Just need to box up an order and drop it off, get packed up for the sunflower farm trip, get gas, x-ray, and then head to Sauvie's.

I am bringing my book/notes/letters as during Halloween they have a really nice outdoor seating area with drinks and snacks and I'm hoping I can hang out and read/write for a bit.

Been studying a house buying book Josh suggested, I'm on sidings and it's a lot. It's really tempting to skip over things like brick and stucco since I doubt I'll buy a house with that sort of siding, but I enjoy completeness when reading physical books. I am getting through it and taking lots of notes!

I still want that Decomposition Notebook with the bats on it really bad. I should buy one for myself, I just haven't yet. I saw them at New Seasons recently but not the bat pattern.

I want to start writing more physical notes and letters since I have become more isolated socially since being in so much physical pain (and resulting deep depression) and the people I love seem to dislike online connection for the most part (grateful to those who are here!), in my ideal world I'd have a messaging group check-in regularly and a weekly zoom with my buddies, but I think because so many people "work from home" they all hate zoom now. My work is the opposite but I don't know anyone else who does service work, except Liz - who was an adventure buddy and figure skating buddy. :( I would love to find a way to reconnect with her but she's also rarely online.

ugh, breaks my heart. Maybe I can send her notes. I need black paper/cards and silver/gold/white paint pens.

Anyway.

The cutest thing happened. I was listening to Sidewalks and Skeletons last night during my sunset walk around the courtyard, and thinking about other current goth/darkwave music, and my new little self-care app that Ta suggested to me suggested that I send her a song recommendation. I was browsing around and it was so funny how this happened, but, last week at the club my DJ played a really good song that I've heard before there several times but didn't know the artist (or forgot), or the name of it. I wanted to know because I loved it but I also was too caught up in the moment to stop dancing, the energy that night was definitely right at its peak when he played it, so I wasn't about to walk over to him and ask what it was. I knew I would hear it again. But it's been bugging me since. So while I was looking for a song for Ta, I was browsing around artists similar to Sidewalks and Skeletons and Crystal Castles came up - and I thought, hey, I bet that's who does that song.

And they are!

So I sent her that song, and I've listened to it probably 15 times since I found it as I was falling asleep last night :) Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.It's not a new song, I don't know how I forgot who did it. Maybe because I have early onset dementia I dunno (I really feel like I have this, sometimes).

fic: roots and graveyard dust

Aug. 27th, 2025 09:50 am
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roots and graveyard dust (1693 words) by Lirazel
Fandom: Sinners (2025)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Annie/Elijah "Smoke" Moore
Characters: Annie (Sinners 2025)
Additional Tags: lots of feelings about annie working the roots, annie backstory
Summary:

Annie makes her first mojo bag on her own the night before Smoke and his brother leave for the war.

When I'm 64

Aug. 26th, 2025 10:09 pm
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Yesterday I turned 64 (one of my good friends pointed out, it’s the first age celebrated in song for decades – there’s an abundance of songs about turning 16 (including no shortage of deeply creepy songs about girls turning 16), lots about turning 21, a couple about turning 25, a few about turning 30, and that’s it, until the Beatles “When I’m Sixty Four”.

In any case, it was a nice birthday, a quiet day at home, followed by my first time going to a Middle Eastern restaurant that’s literally 2 blocks away, and was utterly delicious – I had never had dolmas that there quite that excellent, and the rest was equally good. Today included a trip to a lovely GF bakery for donuts and cupcakes.
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one day I will try to write a new little intro page thingie. but I don't want to do it when I'm depressed and I'm usually depressed, whoops.

Slept through most of the night pain free, and actually had a pleasant dream for once (I get nightmares chronically most nights, it's a common issue with cPTSD/childhood trauma). But I was slow to get out of bed and the back pain crept back in.

A friend suggested a little self-care app called finch to me (lmk if you want an invite, can send it via email or DM or whatever), I failed to use her invite because I didn't understand how but I did friend her when I got there, at least.

It seemed like the app helped me a lot, today. I got through a bunch of stuff I've been struggling with for weeks. I made an appt for my orthotics for my injured right foot, I messaged my doctor at Rebound (disappointing reply but at least I tried), figured out how to get my x-ray done for my ankle (I might go first thing in the morning and then reward myself with a visit to the sunflower festival at Bella Organic Farm on Sauvie's Island), and asked to reschedule an appointment I am not ready for. I asked our realtor to schedule in Josh for a showing this weekend and asked our broker to draft some payment estimates for the house, in case we decide to put in an offer. I have gotten my heart set on another house that I'm hoping will be right for us. Its downsides are workable and it seems like a good little house overall, but there's no way to know for sure until we do an inspection, so. I'll at least look forward to walking through it again with Josh this weekend.

Got some errands done, attended to some work messages I'd been neglecting for a bit, took my supplements, played with Avalanche a lot, did some reading/studying, did some laundry, keeping up on dishes despite Josh not being here (usually I let it go as soon as he leaves), even did my PT this morning.

functioning fairly well but I still feel just absolutely miserable. It is so frustrating. I am working on avoiding the news altogether, especially NPR, which has become just constant violence. I am working on listening to soundscapes and music and not doomscrolling so much, it is helping a bit, it's not as hard as I thought it was going to be.

Just still really reeling from trying to figure out who I am and how to move forward with this really painful body. it feels like dying and I am fixated on death, which happens when I get really depressed. So I know that even though I am getting through some tasks, even ones that can be really difficult for me (medical stuff), I am not well.

It feels like I will never be well.

It's just really hard to figure out how to move forward.

I want to be outside more but it's 90 degrees with poor air quality, alas. Tomorrow will be slightly cooler and a little bit of light rain, I am looking forward to that. x-ray and sunflowers, maybe? I've only been to Bella Organic farm in the fall for the haunted corn maze, it would be nice to see it in summer.

It's nice to have Tues/Wed as my weekend :)

Josh is out of town so I'm a little lonely and eating too much peanut butter (forbidden when he is home) and also relieved that I don't have to pretend to be okay for anyone. I am isolating a bit, I just am so tired of not being seen and listening to what everyone else is going through and not being able to share where I am at because it is too sad.

The friend who sent me the finch invite has been through a lot of death and loss like I have, not quite as much as she still lives with her parents, but her beloved little brother committed suicide a few years ago :(

time for sunset walkies. just had a tearful phone call with josh. he's in New Jersey for work and feeling lonely. we're okay, it's just kinda sad for us right now. walkies will help me not wallow in it too too much.
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[staff profile] denise posting in [site community profile] dw_news

I'll start with the tl;dr summary to make sure everyone sees it and then explain further: As of September 1, we will temporarily be forced to block access to Dreamwidth from all IP addresses that geolocate to Mississippi for legal reasons. This block will need to continue until we either win the legal case entirely, or the district court issues another injunction preventing Mississippi from enforcing their social media age verification and parental consent law against us.

Mississippi residents, we are so, so sorry. We really don't want to do this, but the legal fight we and Netchoice have been fighting for you had a temporary setback last week. We genuinely and honestly believe that we're going to win it in the end, but the Fifth Circuit appellate court said that the district judge was wrong to issue the preliminary injunction back in June that would have maintained the status quo and prevented the state from enforcing the law requiring any social media website (which is very broadly defined, and which we definitely qualify as) to deanonymize and age-verify all users and obtain parental permission from the parent of anyone under 18 who wants to open an account.

Netchoice took that appellate ruling up to the Supreme Court, who declined to overrule the Fifth Circuit with no explanation -- except for Justice Kavanaugh agreeing that we are likely to win the fight in the end, but saying that it's no big deal to let the state enforce the law in the meantime.

Needless to say, it's a big deal to let the state enforce the law in the meantime. The Mississippi law is a breathtaking state overreach: it forces us to verify the identity and age of every person who accesses Dreamwidth from the state of Mississippi and determine who's under the age of 18 by collecting identity documents, to save that highly personal and sensitive information, and then to obtain a permission slip from those users' parents to allow them to finish creating an account. It also forces us to change our moderation policies and stop anyone under 18 from accessing a wide variety of legal and beneficial speech because the state of Mississippi doesn't like it -- which, given the way Dreamwidth works, would mean blocking people from talking about those things at all. (And if you think you know exactly what kind of content the state of Mississippi doesn't like, you're absolutely right.)

Needless to say, we don't want to do that, either. Even if we wanted to, though, we can't: the resources it would take for us to build the systems that would let us do it are well beyond our capacity. You can read the sworn declaration I provided to the court for some examples of how unworkable these requirements are in practice. (That isn't even everything! The lawyers gave me a page limit!)

Unfortunately, the penalties for failing to comply with the Mississippi law are incredibly steep: fines of $10,000 per user from Mississippi who we don't have identity documents verifying age for, per incident -- which means every time someone from Mississippi loaded Dreamwidth, we'd potentially owe Mississippi $10,000. Even a single $10,000 fine would be rough for us, but the per-user, per-incident nature of the actual fine structure is an existential threat. And because we're part of the organization suing Mississippi over it, and were explicitly named in the now-overturned preliminary injunction, we think the risk of the state deciding to engage in retaliatory prosecution while the full legal challenge continues to work its way through the courts is a lot higher than we're comfortable with. Mississippi has been itching to issue those fines for a while, and while normally we wouldn't worry much because we're a small and obscure site, the fact that we've been yelling at them in court about the law being unconstitutional means the chance of them lumping us in with the big social media giants and trying to fine us is just too high for us to want to risk it. (The excellent lawyers we've been working with are Netchoice's lawyers, not ours!)

All of this means we've made the extremely painful decision that our only possible option for the time being is to block Mississippi IP addresses from accessing Dreamwidth, until we win the case. (And I repeat: I am absolutely incredibly confident we'll win the case. And apparently Justice Kavanaugh agrees!) I repeat: I am so, so sorry. This is the last thing we wanted to do, and I've been fighting my ass off for the last three years to prevent it. But, as everyone who follows the legal system knows, the Fifth Circuit is gonna do what it's gonna do, whether or not what they want to do has any relationship to the actual law.

We don't collect geolocation information ourselves, and we have no idea which of our users are residents of Mississippi. (We also don't want to know that, unless you choose to tell us.) Because of that, and because access to highly accurate geolocation databases is extremely expensive, our only option is to use our network provider's geolocation-based blocking to prevent connections from IP addresses they identify as being from Mississippi from even reaching Dreamwidth in the first place. I have no idea how accurate their geolocation is, and it's possible that some people not in Mississippi might also be affected by this block. (The inaccuracy of geolocation is only, like, the 27th most important reason on the list of "why this law is practically impossible for any site to comply with, much less a tiny site like us".)

If your IP address is identified as coming from Mississippi, beginning on September 1, you'll see a shorter, simpler version of this message and be unable to proceed to the site itself. If you would otherwise be affected, but you have a VPN or proxy service that masks your IP address and changes where your connection appears to come from, you won't get the block message, and you can keep using Dreamwidth the way you usually would.

On a completely unrelated note while I have you all here, have I mentioned lately that I really like ProtonVPN's service, privacy practices, and pricing? They also have a free tier available that, although limited to one device, has no ads or data caps and doesn't log your activity, unlike most of the free VPN services out there. VPNs are an excellent privacy and security tool that every user of the internet should be familiar with! We aren't affiliated with Proton and we don't get any kickbacks if you sign up with them, but I'm a satisfied customer and I wanted to take this chance to let you know that.

Again, we're so incredibly sorry to have to make this announcement, and I personally promise you that I will continue to fight this law, and all of the others like it that various states are passing, with every inch of the New Jersey-bred stubborn fightiness you've come to know and love over the last 16 years. The instant we think it's less legally risky for us to allow connections from Mississippi IP addresses, we'll undo the block and let you know.

lazy sunday.

Aug. 24th, 2025 12:04 pm
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A blessed Sunday to myself. Josh flies home from his weekend with Emily tonight. I'll go get him at the airport, and then take him back in the morning for four days in New Jersey for work - poor guy, too much flying.

It's another 95 degree day so I'll close up the apartment and turn on the a/c for Avalanche before I head out to the farmers market. I haven't decided if I'm biking or driving, yet. I'm a bit worn out from all the hiking yesterday. But maybe I can just take it easy on the bike? We'll see how I feel once I'm dressed.

The crows are chattering sweetly. It's slightly overcast and cooler than yesterday, at least so far.

Tyler and I ran off to the coast yesterday to escape the 100 degree day. It was lovely, but unfortunately traffic was a total nightmare. This is why I never go to the coast on weekends in the summer. But this was the only day Tyler could go so I decided to tough it out. It took about three hours to get there and almost 4 hours driving to get home, it was sooooooo bad. (Usually a coastal drive is less than 2hrs each way, but, I always go on Tues/Wednesdays.) But I still would have rather been with him than alone, the trail itself was empty, the mountain was beautiful, and we were treated to the most delightful beach sunset, which was legitimately chilly! So nice after a hot day of hiking. I didn't want to brave a busy restaurant so we popped into a local grocery store and grabbed some snacks before heading out, I am grateful for this. I brought us food also, but I didn't really bring enough to feed Tyler, whose metabolism is 4x as fast as mine, so extra snacks were needed. We found so many cool mushrooms! Quite the score for summer!

It does always make me a little sad that my presence in a beautiful area requires disrupting the space that elk and deer and other forest life used to be able to call their home in peace. I will never not think about this. Even the bugs that get accidentally squished upset me, I can't help it. These kinds of things are why I hate to travel, I try not to drive very much (I put about 5,000 miles a year on my car), I don't like to fly, I feel like I just cause damage and wreckage by existing. I saw this funny video about Europeans protesting the flood of American tourists and it just made me laugh a little. This is why I don't go! But it's also the case, as always, that my sacrifices make so little difference and entitled rich people will just keep traveling and flying everywhere with no concern for the damage it causes. There was this retired couple being interviewed about getting shot with super soakers by Madrid locals, and they were chuckling and saying it was refreshing in the heat and "very exciting actually," which just, uuuuuuugh. These countries depend on tourism, but it's gotten out of control. It reminds me of the car bloat that has happened in this country - nobody thinks about the social and environmental damage of driving a huge car, everyone gets bigger and bigger SUVs and trucks and act like it's just normal. And here I am in my little Fit, desperately trying to see around all these monstrosities on the road all around me while trying to stay safe, it's soooooooooooo awful and nobody talks about it or cares. Nobody needs giant cars! But it's easy and has become normalized and makes them feel safer and more powerful to tower up over everyone else. It's sickening and I hate it. Just needed to vent about that.

I am just... so mindful and thoughtful about my impact, in a world where people just rampantly cause destruction and pollution wherever they go without a second thought. It's why I have this pet peeve about disposable coffee cups. I have been bringing cups to cafes forEVER, I hate making trash unnecessarily. I do this in restaurants (which I rarely go to) whenever possible too, to avoid all that plastic waste. But even after decades, it just doesn't catch on. It's so easy and only takes a moment of thoughtfulness (oh, we're going to get tacos, I'll grab a pyrex just in case we take something home), but nobody else bothers, and they look at me like I'm crazy and grudgingly take my cup or bin as if I am so crazy hippie weirdo. Everyone should be doing this. But alas. It's just little me. I feel so alone in this. It is all set up this way, it is impossible not to make trash, I did it last night buying Josh's lasagna at that lil grocery store, as I hadn't anticipated the purchase and didn't have a bin. It sucks that this isn't just how we do things. Nobody is perfect and I'm not trying to personally blame or guilt anyone, I just wish the culture was different so that this was not such a painful uphill lonely battle. But. I will not stop. Every once in a while I do get a sweet compliment from a barista or something. "It's that sweet environmentally friendly fairy lady!" lol.

My cups have become fashion statements too, due to the art stickers I've added to them. Spooky bunny and mushroom skull and baby Zero and shooting star flowers all get noticed. It's nice. Even for the iced drinks, baristas will exclaim, "I love mason jars!" :)

....

Today I want to visit the farmers market, grab some other groceries and n/a beer, read the house hunting book, and write some cards to my friends with cancer/terminal illnesses.

The floors are swept and I'm caught up on orders. There are ants again but I'm working on it. Website maintenance would be nice but I also want to research possible puppets for the festival this year. I could get started on my moth, or look into a possible light up night puppet with moveable wings and paws (I don't know what this animal would be yet - maybe a made up one - a ghost dragon? I dunno).

...

Been craving so many treats: a buttery pastry, a glazed doughnut, a dipped cone from DQ, a vegan fast food burger (maybe the fake chicken or fish sandwich, with sweet potato fries?), olive/rosemary focaccia. Maybe I can find something indulgent at the market, today. But first, more coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

...

Wrist feels much better, glad I took a break from silks. I avoided using trekking poles yesterday for Neahkanie mountain, which is a 1400' elevation gain hike with lots of roots and logs and erosion and rocks, but it went fine. I might have to do this a lot more going forward, since my hands hurt so often, these days.

Okay an hour left to get to market, time to cool down the apartment, Avalanche is crashed out asleep, time to get going.

terse. bland.

Aug. 24th, 2025 02:01 pm
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What a week.

To be perfectly honest, my previous post was pretty exhausting to write, so this will likely be terse and bland.

A bit of chorus drama this week. We voted on Sophia's membership, which was unanimous, and on Claire's director contract, which failed to get enough votes to pass. The M-team doesn't know what the objections may have been, since it's anonymous, so I guess we'll be having more discussion and another vote this coming Tuesday.

I had my penultimate wedding dress fitting. It's gorgeous and easy to walk around in, plus she's installing a hook so the train can easily be lifted up so it doesn't get stepped on during the reception.

We'd wanted the same officiant as we had in February, but he had to cancel due to health issues, so we're on the hunt for another. Jason's already sent a bunch of emails, so I feel good about it. We've also scheduled the final walkthrough at the venue for this coming Friday.

Work is stressful. Not only are we pounding away on our study report which is due at the end of next month, but we recently got an email about a massive reorg and then nothing but crickets. My coworker cornered one of the folks high up in our management chain, and he said that my directorate should not have been included in the recent announcements, as we were not going to be changing anything until sometime next fiscal year. But we haven't received any official word, which is so infuriating. For an administration that brags about its transparency so much, we sure get kept in the dark about everything.

D&D and quartet practice were both cancelled this weekend so I've been trying to relax and keep myself busy. It's hard because I've been sad and I wasn't prepared to be sad this weekend. On the bright side, I've been on a lesser dose of antidepressant for the last ten days (with permission from my psychiatrist) and haven't felt unaccountably different. A lot has changed in my life over the last 15+ years so I decided I wanted to see if I could reduce my meds, with the hope that I can get off antidepressants entirely. I think it's a realistic goal.

I confessed to Jason recently that I'd never seen a single episode of DuckTales. Though I had friends who watched Disney Afternoon, I never did. That means no Rescue Rangers or Darkwing Duck either. Anyway, Jason decided to remedy this not by watching the original series - which, in his words, "kinda sucks" - but the 2017 reboot, and I gotta say, it's delightful. And it certainly doesn't hurt that David Tennant voices Scrooge McDuck. I could probably listen to him read the phonebook, if we're being honest.

R.I.P. Pan, 2014-2025

Aug. 24th, 2025 01:50 pm
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I didn't expect to have to write this so soon.

On Tuesday, Bill took Pan to the vet because he was seeming a bit sick; on Thursday he texted me to let me know that Pan still wasn't eating or using the litter box, and that he was taking him to the ER, which is the same place as the cardiologist he'd visited previously. There, he discovered that Pan has an enlarged heart, which is likely genetic, as Hook has it too, though a much milder case. They decided to keep him overnight in an oxygen tank and have the cardiology staff look at him in the morning.

Friday after work I went there with Bill to see Pan and make some hard decisions. He had some kind of mass in his heart. They'd never seen anything like it before, and couldn't tell what it was - a tumor, a blood clot, an infection, something else - but you can't do open heart surgery on a cat. He was already in heart failure, and he was having trouble breathing due to fluid buildup, and any heart medicine they would give him would hurt his kidneys, which were already failing. There just weren't any good options - the chance that he'd bounce back at all was extremely unlikely, and even if he did, he might have weeks left regardless. We spent a lot of time with him, petting him and holding him, and agreed that it was time to let go. We were both there until the very end. I think he knew he was loved. The cardiologist wants to study him, to figure out what caused the issue with his heart, so maybe they can save other cats in the future. So in that small way, Pan can be a hero.

We brought Pan and Hook home from the shelter practically on a whim just about exactly 11 years ago - August 14, 2014. They were three months old and so tiny. Pan had a little triangle head, at least half the height of which was ear. He eventually grew into his ears somewhat, but they were always prominent and pointy. Though never a lap cat with me, he was always down for a snuggle in bed or on the couch. He liked to "help" when I would draw, mostly by lying on the sketchbook or attempting to steal my pens. He was a bit of a fraidy cat, especially when it came to the vacuum - it didn't even have to be on for him to hide from it.

When Bill and I split up, I decided he should take both cats. I still stand by that decision. I couldn't take him away from them. Bill was always their favorite, and I know they provided him with a lot of comfort and companionship after he moved out. There was also never any doubt in my mind that he would always do what was best for them, and he always did.

Oh, my sweet baby Pan Pan. Thank you for being such a good friend. I miss you.

Work Work Work

Aug. 23rd, 2025 09:07 am
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 I had to redo all the buttons on the Fugitive Doctor’s coat. They were in bad shape after just walking around the convention. That’s a lot of buttons.

I had fun on the Prisoner panel. My buddy John Peel was on it as well. At the beginning we drew numbers to wear during the panel I got Number 6. We gave the moderator Number 2. It was a roving discussion about the show and its effect on us. Speaking of roving, Rover apparently scared other people too. It is a weather balloon that was terrifying. Watch the show you will understand.

I don’t know why there was no Cobert or Myers this week. It might be summer vacation for the staff and crew. However, it seems a little too on the nose that the Daily Show was put on a five-week hiatus and now the other shows are gone too. I miss my funny.

I did run into people I know at the convention both friends and acquaintances. I was introduced as Peter David’s widow for the first time. Sounded strange to my ear but it is true.

Today I have two panels and plan to get the puppet to Jo. Wish me luck. I also plan to get two puppet heads done. 

I am grateful for fun smaller conventions.

Sweet little angel cat

Aug. 22nd, 2025 10:38 pm
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Woke up from my nap with a throbbing wrist out of nowhere. All I managed to do was feed Avalanche and message Tyler about hiking tomorrow and go back to bed. It hurts so much, I don’t know why. I don’t remember anything happening.

I wasn’t able to give avalanche any playtime today - I had less than 4 hrs of sleep, then counseling and taking Josh to the airport, then work. I had to close up the apartment against the heat so she didn’t have her usual open windows to watch birds and squirrels. I crashed when I got home. Despite not playing with her at all today, she’s curled up between my legs. She loves me anyway. So grateful.

overflow of gratitude

Aug. 22nd, 2025 04:51 pm
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so grateful for my little window a/c unit that kept the apartment cool for Avalanche while I was away at work, today.

so grateful for the a/c at work that keeps me and my customers comfortable on 100 degree days. It's miraculous!

so grateful for iced coffee drinks in the afternoon.

so grateful for dancing late into the night with fun, kind, attractive, silly, fun-loving people and closing the place down at 2am like a bunch of kids, and for Derek playing my favorite songs that kept me going until the wee hours of the morning, causing the required afternoon iced coffee. (He ended with Boys Noize for me! Again!)

so grateful for my sparkly job and the kind, sweet, gentle people who come to get sparkles in their hair from me, for prancing around in faery wings and ears all day, for a beautiful microgreen salad for lunch, for a beautiful breakfast of greek yogurt and berries and crunchy almonds.

for indulging in peanut butter to my heart's content while Josh is away for the weekend.

for a weekend free to do exactly what I want (other than a small mount of work which I am also grateful for!)

so grateful for customers continuing to fill up my appointments, week after week, keeping me afloat, keeping my cat and I housed and fed and our needs met.

thankful for my body not hurting too much today, despite putting it through the ringer this week - grateful I trusted my instincts and opted out of the hike and bike ride that might have increased my pain levels.

grateful for avocados! did you know that they are wonderful with peanut butter?

did I mention how much I love coffee.

I am exhausted and happy and content, tonight. It is 96 outside and 76 in my apartment. I am fed and sheltered and loved. life feels perfect in this moment.

it is 4:59pm! I get to have non-alcoholic beer whenever I want! (I try to wait until after 5pm to start drinking even if it's fake non-beer lol.)

grateful for my sobriety. I complain about it a lot because I get jealous of everyone's quick-fix coping mechanisms (drugs or pills or whatever) to deal with the ills of this world, but it really is better for me to not do any drugs or pharmaceuticals.

someone asked me at the club last night - a cute younger kid in some darker colored raver type pants - asked me if I was a Tiefling. I definitely could be! If I were ever into Dungeons and Dragons I'm sure I'd have played tiefling characters. I had a Tauren the one time I played WOW. I enjoy horns, what can I say.

grateful for saltines, and other small packaged treats that keep me going throughout the day.

grateful for a cozy bed I shall likely fall into at any moment :)

Fuzzy Fuzzy Fuzzy

Aug. 22nd, 2025 11:33 am
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 I got the vest almost done for my costume. It needs buttons and either snaps or Velcro. Now onto the much more complicated swallow tailcoat. The fangs arrived today.

Right now, I am working on some heads out of fun fur that I can price at $40.00 and make a little money on each. I want to get two done today before I start the coat.

At five o’clock I will be at my panel for today. We are discussing one of my favorite TV series that more people need to know about, The Prisoner. I saw it when it first aired. I think I was four and, of course really didn’t understand what I was watching. I did like the cowboy episode. Rover was nightmare fuel for me for years. I thought I had dreamed the whole thing until PBS show it while I was in my teens. The minute I saw Rover I exclaimed, “It’s real?” then explained my nightmares about it. Other bits and pieces felt very familiar. This time I was old enough to understand what I was watching and by the end it was on my favorite list. I rewatched it for this panel and think, considering the situation today, PBS should show it again.

Tomorrow, I have two panels at LI Who

10 am Prog B L.I. Who Beginners  (or How to navigate a convention)

12pm Prog B Heaven Sent 10th Anniversary (TEN YEARS!!!!!!)

Sunday I have one panel

11 am Prog B Sarah Jane Smith (One of my absolute favorite companions)

I’ll be around mostly Saturday because I am trying to get puppets and costumes done as well.

Now one of the cats (Inky the black and white) decided to roll in the fur trimmings and now she is a black, white, pink, and red cat. Of course that means the fur is getting all over the house. 

I am grateful for things I have gotten done.

The Friday Five for 22 August 2025

Aug. 21st, 2025 02:12 pm
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This week's questions were suggested by [livejournal.com profile] canuckfetish

1. Have you ever stayed in a hostel? If so, where? Did you like it? If you haven't stayed in a hostel, would you?

2. What is your favo(u)rite airport that you've been to? Why?

3. What is the best museum you have visited on vacation?

4. Have you ever made friends while traveling whom you keep in touch with on a regular basis?

5. Have you ever had a conversation with a seatmate on a plane?

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Busy Busy Busy

Aug. 21st, 2025 09:54 am
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 If it is not one thing then it is another.

Right now, I am working on my costume for Sean’s Party. Then it is back to puppets.

I will be at LI Who this weekend. I have several panels I am on

Friday 

5 pm Prog A: The Prisoner panel 

Saturday 

10 am Prog B: L.I. Who Beginners 

12pm Prog B: Heaven Sent 10th Anniversary

Sunday 

11 am Prog B: Sarah Jane 

In between those I will be wandering the convention or going home to continue the work on Puppets.

Monday is loose ends day. Putting the mail on hold. Getting our change bank ready for DragonCon. Cats taken care of. And all the other things I need to do before leaving town.

Tuesday we start our journey to Dragon Con. I want to get with in 4 to 6 hours of Atlanta before stopping for the night.

Wednesday is the beginning of Dragon Con for us, but it really cranks up on Thursday.

Then we are in the Dragon Con through Monday. 

After we get back, I get to reset my thinking with no other conventions except NYCC to think about and I don’t have a table there.

I am grateful for conventions and the joy they bring me.

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